Hiding behind
Man made hedgerows
I caught a glimpse
A mute siren
She captured my attention
Pulled ever closer
I watched disembodied
As I crashed
On the shoals
Of my own folly
Drowning 'neath the waves
Of my failed hello
I'm swallowed up
By the unforgiving sea
Of conversation
She watches, amused
Having seen it all
Before

Stop
And listen
To the whisper
Of the edge
Cutting
Into flesh

Stop
And smell
The sweet scent
Of dripping
Life

Stop
And taste
The prolonged
Moments
Of the last
Breath

Stop
And watch
The single tear
Falling
To the floor

Stop
And feel
The lonely
Desperation
End

Stop
And think
Is this really
Where you
Thought
You'd end up

Now stop
And rewind
Take those
Moments
Back
Undo the now
So the future
Does
Not
Stop

Godfrey's Aside

I cling too much
I know I do
To every word you say
To every moment
With you
Like a starving man
Around a buffet
I silently pine
Amidst a feast
Wanting much more
Than I could ever have

I wanna wanna
Girl like you
A girl free and dear
A girl with a sunny smile
I wanna wanna
Girl like you
One whose free and clear
One who will
Make me her dear

Flipped my mind
On a dime
Don't know what to do
But I think I'm through

Superstition adds to the mix
I saw your eyes
Just before the turn
And you smiled
That smile of yours
Not knowing where it would land
Black cat sleeping on the roof
Single minded devotion
To nothing new
I saw the end jump up
From underneath
And still you smiled
Just for me
Or so I like to pretend
Can't say the last time
I heard her sing
But it wont last forever
And from under the ladder
I heard the sound
Of mirrors breaking
Salt scattered nearby
And I felt your smile
As it passed my way
Still mine I would say
As I watched it go out of view

I
I can feel
Your words
Licking at the edge
Of me
And I
I can feel
The idea
Of you
Seeping through
The bomb shelter walls
Of my heart
I
I can feel
The way
You move
My magnetic north
And I
I can feel
Your eyes
Staring down
My fear
And I know
I know
You're there
Like the dunes
Against the tide
The lightening
In the sky
I know
You're there
Like the footprints
Before the step
The shelter
Before the storm
I
I can hear
Your words
In the sigh
Of the wind
The tapping
Of the rain
And I
I can hear
You say
Come Home

I've had enough
Of tender remembrances
Of late night
Wistful romances
Sleeping alone
Is all I do
Surrounded by
Unwanted memories
Of you
It's cold comfort
Forgetting about you
Learning to be one
Instead of two
Don't know why
I'm thinking this way
Suddenly sentimental
For yesterday
I don't want to return
I need to look ahead
Think of tomorrow
Not what's dead
I need today
Something new
Not sentimental
Memories of you

Physician heal thyself
And I pronounced myself cured
But I have a fool
For a physician
Because I still haven't recovered
From when you
Took your heart away

The medicinals
They had their numbing effect
The chemo and draughts
My physician said
Put me into remission

But the cancer remained
From your love turned poison
And the wound never filled in
From any intention

Sometimes I feel it
Gnawing inside
Creating empty places
Where I try to hide

Physician heal thyself
But some wounds
Are just too deep

It's Never What You Think

I was lucid dreaming
When they brought me the corpse
A tight white bundle
With a slowly blooming rose
I heard the drip drip drip
Of IV sedation
Somewhere down hall
My left arm
Sending smoke signals
One finger drifting away at a time
I saw you then
Reflected in the lake
I tried to smile
But it was already
Too late
I smelled the gardens
Full of basil and rosemary
And felt your shadow
Cross my face
Waking, I lost all sense
Of who I'd been
The world is become
Devoid of meaning
And I only long
To be back with you

Felicity's empty apartment
Wasn't quite so empty
The little blue light
Kept my sanity
While the candles
Continued their beautiful
Self destruction
I heard the whispers
After the lights went out
Her breath in my ear
Held back the dreams
Creeping nightmares
Ivy vines of scattered thought
Try to keep me
From morning's warm light
Felicity left me
Alone in her room
Full of photos
Of people she never knew

Brilliant red sunshine
Lit the way
Rotting carcass of a rat
In the middle of the road
Death and the circle of life
A poor excuse
For nature's avarice
A tongue in cheek subtext
A wink to what we already know
Playing out daily
A subtle irony?
No one really thinks so

Found an old VHS
Lable was faded
"Brutesque"
Dug out the machine
Pressed play
Sat and stared
It was brutal
A nauseating display
Human brutality
One on one
It was grotesque
Freak show
Valueless characters
Meaningless lives
Pointless pursuits
"Brutesque"
A letterbox highlight reel
Starring you
And me

We made a connection
Didn't we
Out on the edge
Of your sanity
You'd waited for years
For a night like that
Giving in too soon
Your lust a trap
We swung wildly
Forgetting our dreams
Letting go of reality
Tearing at the seams
We made a connection
Everyone missed
But we let loose the demons
With our bloody tryst
And found ourselves
Out of hope and panting
Shallowed out remains
Of a once was enchanting

Love is an illusion
I once believed
But once you see
Past the romance
It's nothing but
Sleight of hand
A little bit of
Sexual misdirection
And you can't understand
How your heart disappeared
While your looking
After your honey
She's backstage
With another man
The cabinet is empty
And she's sitting
In the audience
Watching the fool
Still on stage
She takes over the show
And cuts you in half
All the while
Proclaiming her love