I have dreams
That don't exist
They bend
And break
And twist
My sanity
I have dreams
That whisper
Always on the edge
Underneath
Outside
Of my reality
I have dreams
Don't Deny me that
Don't listen
Don't believe
My honesty
I have dreams
Like any other man
Woman
Or child
Hidden from clarity
I have dreams
I can't tell you
Show you
Or explain
Jungian secrets
I have dreams
They shouldn't be
Can't be
Won't be
Mine.

My dreams persist
They exist
Where they aught not
I banish them by day
But still they stay
When I wish they would not
They torture my heart
They have from the start
Escape, I can not
My dreams remain
Driving me quietly insane
Hope I have not
Let me sleep
Silent and deep
And dream not

Holy shit
I'm just
I'm just not fit
One sight
Lose my wit
NO recovery
No, just sit
Wallow
Wallow in it
Know that I'm
I ain't worth a shit
I aint worth
Just a bit
Of what she is
I'm just not fit