I could sail a thousand seas
And see a thousand wonders
I could visit a thousand kingdoms
And hear a thousand praises
I could visit a thousand bazaars
And taste a thousand spices
I could beat a thousand drums
And sing a thousand songs
And I would be none the richer
For I have no eyes to see
The wonders of the world
No ears to hear
Glad words and merriment
No tongue to taste
The bounty of the Earth
I have no heart to sing
A minstrel's tale
For I have abdicated joy
And divorced hope
I have taken Loneliness
As my soul companion
I mark time
By the passing of light into dark
And run my fingers
Across Occam's Razor
Waiting
For what, I do not know

A thousand ways in
No way out
I walked this road
Now I just want to go home
I've left myself no choices
Except those untenable
God help me
I'm so very lost
A thousand ways in
I had a thousand chances
I didn't know what I was doing
And that's never been an excuse
I blew through them all
I keep asking for you
I keep begging
Another chance
Another you
I had a thousand ways in
I used them all
To get lost
And no way out

World built for two
And where am I
Without you
A simpering sentiment
It's true
But the world's unwieldy
Without you

I want to call you
I want to reach out
And touch your fingertips
I want to stop this sinking
I want to keep from drowning
And I don't know how
I need you to be there
I need you to see
But I lost track of you
I need for you to listen
I need a way back
But I don't know how
The lost lonely days
I've a feeling they've just begun
Want I want
What I think I need
Are moot on this road
I've only my ignorance
To guide me now

They wait in the shadows
Ready to ambush and devour
Biding their time
Sharpening their claws
I know I shouldn't
But I feed them in the dark
(No one is foolish enough
To believe them tame
But we all pretend it's true)
I feed and groom them
My own deadly sins

Bad things are happening
Up around the bend
You'll have a story tell
If you survive to the end
One way or another
The river must be crossed
Without a proper burial
I'm afraid you'll be lost
I've too tender a heart
For the task at hand
I'm a never was man
I cannot make this stand
The end never comes
It's never soon enough
By the time it's my time
My screaming voice, gruff

My spite
It means nothin'
Nothin'
My opinion
It means nothin'
Nothin'
My consideration
It means nothin'
Nothin'
I've faced what I could
It means nothin'
Nothin'
What I say
It means nothin'
Nothin'
What I feel
It means nothin'
Nothin'

I could cry to the wind
Scream to the mountains
Argue with the rain
It would mean...
It would come to...
It would change...
Nothin'
Nothin'

I can't raise a sword
To conquer the unknown
I can't raise a shield
To defend my kin
I can't till the ground
To feed my family
I can't wield the pen
To further understanding
I can't lift an offering
To sacrifice to my God
I can only stand in shame
For what I am not

The Lord is leaving me behind
Not because He wishes it
But because I chose
To stand still
I have rejected by silence
The bread and wine
He offers
And I rightly starve
Standing here alone
I gave no indication
That I heard His pleas
Now my heart is stone
Denied His voice
The Lord is leaving me
Not by His design
But by my weakness
I fall further behind

Each one a broken dream
The cars at the salvage yard
My marriage
My faith
And I the driver
Out of control
So much for freedom
So much for pride
I gave them all away
When I chose
To hide
What I  wouldn't give
To see them made whole
But redemption
Is for the chosen
And I am just myself
With nowhere left to hide