I come to these pages
To indulge my ego
To try and color my angst
Crucify my fears
And exorcise my demons
But it doesn't seem to work
Anymore
The boat is sinking
Faster than I can bail
And I'm afraid
I just don't care
Anymore
Let the whole thing sink
Let it all implode
Will the future really change
Would anyone really notice
I find that the answers
To those questions
Are just as unimportant
Just as full of meaning
As the rest of this charade

I've spent enough time
Talking to myself
Derision poured on derision
Only ferments the pain
But who else would speak
In my stead
And to whom should I listen
When silence threatens
It's in the silence
That the whispers can be heard
Pleading and urgent
The promise of the unsheathed
The urgency
Of the safety coming off
The madness whispers its plea
To join in its ranks

I close my eyes too much
To the folly of my ways

If I looked you in the eyes
If I saw what you saw
If I could only bear the thought
What would I see

The lies, the hate, the calculations
Or
The love, honor, the charity

If you want me to listen
Will your eyes
Say the same thing
As your mouth
Will you be a creature
Of habit
Or one of fealty

Despicable men
Sleep in wood
As is often their wont
But don't let them see
The pyres of the brave
The knaves in the grass
Lay seige to the righteousness
Undoing the wars of old
The fires burn bright
To consume our hope
The children cry
Their mothers abandoned
By the men's fealty
To unsavory Lords
And the common man?
He lays bleeding in the field
Forgotten by all