There is nowhere
I can take you
That you have not been
There is nothing
I can show you
That you have not seen
There is no one
I can introduce to you
That you have not met
There is nothing
I can teach you
That you do not know
There is no love
I can give you
That you have not known
And yet...
You still see me
You still value me
You still call my name
And You still love me
That which surrounds us
The gardens, walls and mazes
Self imposed traps
Comfort becomes
Uncomfortable
A prison
Of our own design
Beauty, still present
Becomes anathema
We can see no path
On the paths we've created
We cannot find our way home
Stop
And struggle no more
These walls are impermanence
These paths will bend
To your will
They will guide you
Home to me
Is this the end of things
Beat up and battered
Communal dottage
Talking past each other
Trying without hope
To maintain yesterday
(The lady in pink
Goes about Her business)
Sad twisted flowers
Hollow remembrances
Of what we were
(Quiet, efficient
Coldly compassionate)
Lunch is over
Time for a nap
Waiting for BINGO
To bring meaning
To our lives
"Have I wasted my life?"
I looked at her, Hoping she wouldn't answer. I'm not sure what I expected, asking that sort of question. She sat and stared, looking deep within me. She gave the appearance of someone who was actually considering the question.
"Well, I..."
"Stop, I don't want to know "
"But I... "
"No, I said I didn't want to know, and I'm pretty sure I meant it."
"Your loss", she said
And I knew that my cowardness had disappointed her. Again.
"Ok. Maybe you're right. I should listen to what you have to say. As you say, I did ask."
"Ok, I'm ready..."
She stared at me. Incredulous? Maybe so. She exhaled slowly, and began...
For far too long
I've closed my eyes
My gaze turned inward
Focused for too long
Upon my faults and sin
For far too long
I have let myself
Remained chained
By my fears
By my past
By my reluctance at life
For far too long
I have slept
Unaware
Losing my todays
Leaving my path
Uncharted
It is time
To wake
To open my eyes
To break free
Embrace my todays
And finally
Face my future
The world collapses
In slow motion
Whirlwind of
Personal tragedy
Pulse & beat
In half time
Quarter time
A still life of
Flying debris
And...
Breathe
She smiles
Her eyes light the way
Tread carefully
Through
The spinning crumbs
Of a life decayed
To reach her smile
To see rebirth
A new still life
Spinning up
To Joy
All Played out
In her eyes.
I set sail
Yes, I set sail
I'm drowning
On my own
Mobile Atlas
I carry what I can
I set sail today
Going and gone
I don't know where
I don't know if
And tomorrow...
I set sail
Not knowing how long
How long I can carry on
Maybe I'll find...
Maybe I won't
It's never enough
What I have to give
I set sail
Yes, I set sail
Coward that I am
I set sail
You know
I look around
And
You are nowhere
To be found
I hear your name
On the wind
I see you face
In the stars
I feel your love
In my heart
But you
You are nowhere
To be found
I can sail the seas
I can beg the wise
I can question the night
But you
You are gone
The wind stills
The stars fall
My heart fails
You are gone
Close your eyes
There's no reason to hurry home
Sleep and dream
Close your eyes
And open your mind
A whisper
On a hill
Quiet summer night
Everything, still
Taxi, bright yellow
Unnervingly clean
Sweeps into view
Bright blue moon
Lights it's way
Dark moonless wood
Something...
Creeping there
Waiting
Heavy breath
And low growl
An end bides it's time
Water as blue as it is deep
Bright winter, noontime sun
Sails pull your heart
Cresting wavelets
Beat a rythym promising sleep
Look up
She is staring
And I?
Loving in a box canyon
Desiccated, dry
Dull blood moon
The only light
Is the creeping fire
Safety and dreams
Become
Smaller and smaller
And for me
There is no waking call
No hope
But you, wake from here
And go
Refreshed
Into the light of day
I have dreams
That don't exist
They bend
And break
And twist
My sanity
I have dreams
That whisper
Always on the edge
Underneath
Outside
Of my reality
I have dreams
Don't Deny me that
Don't listen
Don't believe
My honesty
I have dreams
Like any other man
Woman
Or child
Hidden from clarity
I have dreams
I can't tell you
Show you
Or explain
Jungian secrets
I have dreams
They shouldn't be
Can't be
Won't be
Mine.
The whisper of the blade
The delicacy of the poison
The last song of the rope
The twisted highway metal
A thousand ways
To let go of my responsibility
A thousand ways
To enter the night
A thousand unfulfilled dreams
A thousand thoughts
And each as desperate
As the last
Hold my hand
And please have some faith
As I find my way
Into the light
Look into my eyes
And please
See who I can be
Hold my hand
And hold me tight
Hold me tight
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