what would you do, if i told you
what i really thought?
would you run?
would you lock me away?
what would you do, if i did to you
what i really wanted?
would you cry?
would you scream?
what would you do, if i acted toward you
what i saw you do?
would you cry foul?
would you see the truth?
what would you do, if i showed you
what you really are?
would you deny?
would you end it all?

tell me, just what you would do?

I can't sleep tonight
it's too quiet in here
all I'm left with
are the sounds in my head

The sound of my footsteps
down an empty hall
The sound of my breathing
in an empty bed
The of my spoon
across the bottom of an empty bowl
The sound of my heart
aching in an empty life

Relief now
the bark of a lone dog
a single air conditioner starts
a tire squeals
Relief now that the quiet is gone

(but the emptiness...)

as i stand here alone
the earth falling away
i begin to panic and fret
where will, how will i
stand with nothing beneath me
the last bit of ground
crumbles beneath
i throw my arms wide
and surrender to you
O Lord, you sustain me
when all has been swept away

like a lone tree i stand
while the storm gathers around
the wind, wild, wicked
lightening flashes
closer and closer
Hail pours down
crushing everything in its path
i throw my arms wide
and surrender to you
O Lord, you sustain me
when all around is chaos

floating alone
in craft rapidly sinking
the waves gather force
threatening and sinister
pushed by the unseen hand of the tide
sharks, barracuda, jellyfish, and worms
wait below
slowly i stand, unsteady
i throw my arms wide
and surrender to you
O Lord, you sustain me
when all threatens to rip me apart

You, o merciful God
my rock
my refuge
my strong tower
You O Lord,
You sustain me
You sustain me

why o wretched soul
do you turn this way and that
why o wretched heart
are pulled here and there
why o wretched flesh
are you seduced at every turn
why o wretched man
do you clamor for God whilst chasing satan

O, my soul
Turn toward what is right
O, my heart
Follow the Spirit of God
O, my flesh
Be not seduced by sin

I will clamor after God
I will seek after His face
I will pray for His will

I reject the death that is Satan
I reject the lie that is his word
I reject the empty promise that he makes

It is You, O God
That restores my soul
Renews my heart
And purifies my flesh

Praise the name of the Lord!
Praise the Lord on high!
Holy is the name of the Lord!
Worthy is He!
Worthy is He!

She is my pornography
A delicious pleasure
That cannot be
A forbidden passion
I am desparate to try
She unravels my will
And twists my fate
She infects my every thought
And dwells just beyond my reach

Here I am
A man alone
In a room of mirrors
Surrounded on every side
I see me
Reflected in the eyes
Of all around
Each a different set
Of expectations
Of hopes
and of dreams
You see a portion of me
A bit of who I am
A reflection of your history and hope
But I am Not
I am Not
A sum of your collected vision
I am not
No, I am not
A reflection of what you see in your eyes
I am myself
Whole and created
And So Much More
Than you see*

when the flag come down
and the curtain drops
i'm left standing alone
one gun in the hand
two in the chamber
one in my head
where is the remainder
black flag rises
curtain call at last
no one to mourn
my forgettable past