I saw you check your watch
I saw you keeping time
You turned around to find me
But...

I saw your eyes sparkle
I saw that special gleam
You turned so I'd notice
But...

I heard you laugh out loud
I heard you softly smile
You turned for me to join in
But...

I heard your aching sobs
I heard that mournful cry
You turned to me for comfort
But...

You forgot that you'd left me
Told me to lose my way
You said I should be a never was
And I should cease to be

You lost the best part
Of what made you you
Then you took
That part of my heart
To try to make you you again
And in that fraction
Between now and then
You ended up losing
Your dearest friend

A telemarketer's calling my name
I haven't a dime
But I listen just the same
Some wonderous product
Of that I have no doubt
But without cash money
I'm doin without
Listen sir, let me explain
Cause when I'm done
You'll no cause to complain
So I listened quite intently
To everything she had to say
But its always the same
I have no way to pay
Just gimme one more try
And I've no doubts
You'll be ready to buy
Listen girl, I said at last
What I really need
It's not a knock off product
But a simple deed
A moment of human kindness
A tender loving touch
A smile to light my day
Is that really asking too much
She stopped talking
And just listened
Without baulking
What I want
Just ain't for sale
But one day I'll find it
I just can't fail
Searching through every sigh
Through every smile
I'll keep going til I find it
Mile after mile
She hung up at last
And I wondered aloud
If I'd made any difference
Or was I just one of the crowd

As Lulu's sweet dark secrets
Crept through me
I began to realize
I just have to be
Who I am
No pretending
No artificial sweeteners
No, just what I am
I can hope where I choose
I can laugh when I want
It's ok if my eyes turn to tears
Each separate thing
Each makes clear
In the complex mix of me
Every bit as important as another
And no matter how much
How much you waste
There will always be more
No matter what flavors
You reject
For whatever reason
You object
I will be me and more

One more step
On a 3000 day journey
I just cannot do
I'm tired of the mountains
The valleys
The deserts
And plains
All seem so empty
Since you went away
I hear the ghost of your voice
Whispering in the wind
Reminding me what I've lost
And where I'll never tread again
I long to rest
To stop this endless search
For what I will never find
I want to stop
To sleep
And forget about you

Loneliness moves time
Like so much lint thru a screen
Every aching moment
Builds upon the last
Until the very act of breathing
Becomes too much
A fire hazard
You wait to combust
From the everyday heat of things
Spinning out if control

Captain, what are your orders
Captain, your orders....
Flashback
Icarus launched
Straight and true
Flying for a new home
As humanity breathed its last
One last hope
One last dream
Into the stars
We commended ourselves
A planet to find
A new home for man
We search the stars
For somewhere to land
...
At last on the scope
A hospitable host
A planet of promise
A place of hope
We plot a cautious course
Not sure what to expect
But our hope grow wildly
Despite our effort
We grow closer and close
Long range sensors
Paint the picture
A place of riches
But dangerous it seems
Hidden risk
Must be considered
Before we scout too far ahead
...
At last we arrive
In the system
Of proposed hope
The closer we come
The greater the pull
Her gravity well runs deep
But we ignore the risk
Until we find
It's much too late
We are stuck here now
Caught in her pull
The choices are few
The consequences many
And the crew is screaming
Like the alarms before
Captain your orders...
But I've no idea what to do

I thought I caught a glimpse
Of you
On my horizon
Like the early morning mist
On a quiet sea
Illusionary hope
I told myself
Foolish dreams, I shouldn't hope.
Like sweet smelling sunshine
I saw you come so close
And I dare not break
The silence I imposed
For if I spoke
The dreams could fail
And I could lose
What little remained
But I watched and tried
Not to hope.
Til you caught glimpse
And smiled my way
I trembled in fear
Of what you might say
I worried and fret
As you made your way
Across the room
And over to me
I waited and saw
With each nearer step
You cast upon me
A shadow of hope.
And how did we act
Like two familiar strangers
Falling back into a rhythm
I'd missed so much
You made me dance
And sing and laugh
You gave wing
Once more to hope.
Not the shallows
Of what is not
But of the simple pleasures
Of being
Of friendship beginng
Perhaps anew
No expectations
No demands
Just this moment
Me with you.