I want to call you
I want to reach out
And touch your fingertips
I want to stop this sinking
I want to keep from drowning
And I don't know how
I need you to be there
I need you to see
But I lost track of you
I need for you to listen
I need a way back
But I don't know how
The lost lonely days
I've a feeling they've just begun
Want I want
What I think I need
Are moot on this road
I've only my ignorance
To guide me now

They wait in the shadows
Ready to ambush and devour
Biding their time
Sharpening their claws
I know I shouldn't
But I feed them in the dark
(No one is foolish enough
To believe them tame
But we all pretend it's true)
I feed and groom them
My own deadly sins

Bad things are happening
Up around the bend
You'll have a story tell
If you survive to the end
One way or another
The river must be crossed
Without a proper burial
I'm afraid you'll be lost
I've too tender a heart
For the task at hand
I'm a never was man
I cannot make this stand
The end never comes
It's never soon enough
By the time it's my time
My screaming voice, gruff

My spite
It means nothin'
Nothin'
My opinion
It means nothin'
Nothin'
My consideration
It means nothin'
Nothin'
I've faced what I could
It means nothin'
Nothin'
What I say
It means nothin'
Nothin'
What I feel
It means nothin'
Nothin'

I could cry to the wind
Scream to the mountains
Argue with the rain
It would mean...
It would come to...
It would change...
Nothin'
Nothin'

I can't raise a sword
To conquer the unknown
I can't raise a shield
To defend my kin
I can't till the ground
To feed my family
I can't wield the pen
To further understanding
I can't lift an offering
To sacrifice to my God
I can only stand in shame
For what I am not

The Lord is leaving me behind
Not because He wishes it
But because I chose
To stand still
I have rejected by silence
The bread and wine
He offers
And I rightly starve
Standing here alone
I gave no indication
That I heard His pleas
Now my heart is stone
Denied His voice
The Lord is leaving me
Not by His design
But by my weakness
I fall further behind

Each one a broken dream
The cars at the salvage yard
My marriage
My faith
And I the driver
Out of control
So much for freedom
So much for pride
I gave them all away
When I chose
To hide
What I  wouldn't give
To see them made whole
But redemption
Is for the chosen
And I am just myself
With nowhere left to hide