I have dreams
That don't exist
They bend
And break
And twist
My sanity
I have dreams
That whisper
Always on the edge
Underneath
Outside
Of my reality
I have dreams
Don't Deny me that
Don't listen
Don't believe
My honesty
I have dreams
Like any other man
Woman
Or child
Hidden from clarity
I have dreams
I can't tell you
Show you
Or explain
Jungian secrets
I have dreams
They shouldn't be
Can't be
Won't be
Mine.

My dreams persist
They exist
Where they aught not
I banish them by day
But still they stay
When I wish they would not
They torture my heart
They have from the start
Escape, I can not
My dreams remain
Driving me quietly insane
Hope I have not
Let me sleep
Silent and deep
And dream not

Holy shit
I'm just
I'm just not fit
One sight
Lose my wit
NO recovery
No, just sit
Wallow
Wallow in it
Know that I'm
I ain't worth a shit
I aint worth
Just a bit
Of what she is
I'm just not fit

The whisper of the blade
The delicacy of the poison
The last song of the rope
The twisted highway metal
A thousand ways
To let go of my responsibility
A thousand ways
To enter the night
A thousand unfulfilled dreams
A thousand thoughts
And each as desperate
As the last

Hold my hand
And please have some faith
As I find my way
Into the light
Look into my eyes
And please
See who I can be
Hold my hand
And hold me tight
Hold me tight

Deny

The disc of our world peels
Like the skin
Of a sunburned tourist

Deny

She slipped into the night
Taking with her
The only light I knew

Deny

I want to taste the future
What approaches
To whom does it belong

Deny

The dust, the sand
Crusted tears demand
She find the path again

Deny

Sweet delicate Nonesuch
Rising in his mind's eye
Breathless beauty of her smile

Deny

Cold, empty and alone
I stand
Amidst my fallen dreams

Deny

Who would call me home
And to who
Do I belong

Deny

The time of my life
The look of my future
The remains of my past

Deny
Deny
Denied
Denied

Will you find me
Lost in the world
Will you make your way
To my door
Will you know
If you find me
Will you be capable
Of knowing who I am
Will you ever find me
Lost as I am

You are the sunshine
That flows like a river
Into my heart
You light
The darkest portions of me
You warm
What has never been warm
You shine
And give life to the dead
You are the sunshine
Flowing like a river
Into my heart