Saw a picture of you
As I was passing through
From one end to the other
Like an austere museum
You were there
Occupying a room
All your own
But from passage to passage
I saw you again
Like some mad Worhal
Repeated on end
Soon the halls were made of you
The floors, ceiling and lights
Crafted from your image
And when I saw the dust itself
Turn into your image
I breathed you in
As you dimmed my eyes
No end in sight
An ever growing scenery of you
I looked down to see
My skin becoming...
A nightmare of repetition
You have consumed everything
Including me...

What happened to my
About face
Where did my change of heart
Go
I countermanded my own
Orders
I'm AWOL from myself
I've been marching
In the middle of nowhere
Waging a useless war
Upon nothing at all

I see what people do
Every day I am a witness
To what acts of violence
They visit upon themselves
And sometimes
Their thoughts
Just won't leave me alone
Like a thousand bloody responses
To the despair of everyday
Their ripped veins scream out
The echoes ring through me
And whisper my name
Violent urges haunt my nights
While empty eyes
Watch my days
The ghosts of a hundred suicides
And the tears of ten thousand
Attempts
Drive me to the edge of almost
And beg me
To step just a little closer

Took a whirlwind tour
Through the land of you
Through the overcast valleys
The sunlit mountains
Storm whipped oceans
And placid plains
I visited the soaring towers
Of ancient universities
The humble villages
Of folk wisdom
Busy centers of commerce
And sacred temples of peace

My visa expired
And I headed home
Misty dreams of far away lands
Fill my nights
And I long to return
To that mythic land
I long to return
To that far away you

Sittin on the side of the street
Letting it all flow around me
The sights and sounds
The ghosts of others dreams
I catch bits and pieces
I close my eyes and soak it in...

Walking alone
Man dressed in black
The look in his eyes
A story to tell...
" I've been wandering
Lost for too long
Searching for my promised land
Looking for a home
My heart has been
In the driest desert places
A homeless nomad
Making due with what I find
Where will I find her
Who will she be
My promised lass
Where my heart can be free..."

Woman shuffled past
Eyes cast down
Doesn't look around
But her frown cries out...
" Should be easy to see
What's blinding me
But if I pull off the blinders
I won't be able to stand
I'll have all these reminders
Of what I can't stand
Can't live a life
Voluntarily blinded
From all life's strife
But don't want to be reminded"

Music's playing loud
Can't see the source
But his message is as clear
As the pain he shouts out...
" I'm a
Fat ugly f*uck
Wat don't belong
U can't convince me
Dat I'm wrong
I come along
Like a chunky duck
Waddlin thru
Don't give a f*ck
Ripped dudes laugh
Da females reject
Ain't never gonna get
No f*ckin respect
Ima chunky mutha
At da line ta eat
Gotta stuff myself
Git up n repeat
Don't gimme no sh*t
Git outta my way
Cuz some u mutha's
Gots ta pay!"

One more cool cat
Slides on by
It's easy to read
His self satisfied grin
"A raging beast
My hearts on the prowl
To spoil the innocent
And take what is mine
I'm so clever to hide
The fear inside
No one will tame me
No one will try
I cry and I roar
My impotence on display
I wish she would come along
Tame me and make me complete"

I get up and smile
The streets are full
Each passing story
Both a wonder and horror to see
I hope they find
Exactly what they should
As I make my way home
Looking for a chance
I wonder, what do others see
As I pass by their way...

I got twisted around
When I saw you cry

I try too hard
To make you laugh
I can see you cringe
When I say
The next stupid thing
I just wanna make
The tears go away

I got twisted around
When I saw you cry

Yeah, I know
You need those tears
You need to cry
To let loose those fears
I'm just bein selfish
Cuz I wanna see you smile

I got twisted around
When I saw you cry

Don't be afraid to let them flow
Let it out
So your heart will grow
You just gotta realize
That I'll still be tryin
(Maybe it's my jokes
Causin the cryin)

I got twisted around
When I saw you cry

My heart swirls in circles
I don't understand
Oh what a fool I am
To be here again
But a man is ever a fool
When he follows his heart
And twice the fool
Where a woman is concerned
Do I give in then
To this foolishness
When I don't know
What that even means
Do I stay still
And miss an opportunity
That will probably never be
Or something else
Some other something
That will leave me feeling
More the fool
Oh what a pitious pain
A foolish heart can be

Save me God
From myself
And find some way
To turn my foolishness
Into your wisdom