I can see now
Why they do it
Why they pull that trigger

You stand for something
You work at making it right
You plead for the small differences
And for that
You are despised
Reviled
Because you did not
Give them what they want
You didn't feed their inner beast
And it wears on you
Pulls at you
Until you start believing the hate
Until you see you through their eyes
And you despair

Desperate
You search for acceptance
Maybe a little love and kindness
You give in
Bit by bit
And give them what they want
And you know
You're hurting them
You rationalize
And make excuses
You give up the crusade

And you hate yourself for that
Stuck between
Despair and hatred
You begin to understand why
Why they pull the trigger.

She brushed her hair back
In that moment
She was vulnerable
For just that instant
And my heart exploded
With grief

I would've given
Everything
For an I love you
Just one more

The drink spilled
She startled awake
With one deep breathe
The trigger was pulled

Crossing the Vernon River
Sunglasses on
Cold War Kids on the radio
Memories of Molly
Rattling around my head
And for just a moment
Life was ok

I'm waiting
Here in the dark
Waiting for the footfall
Crouched in the night
Is the end
Ready to spring
I can feel the tension build
I can hear
The inevitable sigh

It's getting so close
I'm so very close...

What business do I have
With any complaint
Who should worry
About my viewpoint
The machine doesn't care
What it's electrons know
And the body doesn't care
What each cell feels
We each are expendable
Disposable parts
Cells to sloughed
Electrons to be exchanged
Just a tiny part of some whole
We'll never know

When the plug is pulled
On your life
You know
You sense
The turbulence
All around
And then
Life seems to calm
Until that day you look up
And realize
You've just
Been going in circles
Round and round
And every day
Just a little closer
To the end

If you've a warning
Please make it clear
Not shrouded in mystery
That women hold dear
You said we were through
You'd already left my heart
You had no mercy
As you tore us apart
Cowardess has a name
I saw it written in your eyes
Disdain's secret language
Translated by your lies
The woman I thought I loved
I fought for what you wanted
The woman who never loved
Has left me haunted