it
would
be
so easy
just to split that vessel
except
i can't stand pain

it would be quick
to push lead through bone
and brain
except
i don't hava gun

a noose is
too slow
poison
a mess
accidents too obvious
death by cop
much too public

some people are meant to live
if only in misery
some are not meant for happiness
and i am
i realize
one of those