I, I had one more thing to say
I stared intently at the chair
The single lamp gave
A certain gravity to the room
The wind's incessant howling
Quite suddenly stopped
And the world seemed to me
To wait to hear what I had to say
I, uh, I need only one thing
I need you to listen...
No response
I need you to listen to me...
No response
Alright, I will go on then
I've waited years for this moment
And I won't be stopped now
They sold me a lie
You understand....
No response
They sold me on a future
All I had to do
All anyone had to do
Was to work hard
To go to school
To be honest
To stay clean
And then your mom and your god
They would be proud of you
And you would be happy
And I bought it
Do you hear me
I bought it...
No response
Yeah you know where this is going
Mom went silently senile
And god just keep silent
The work piled up
And they changed their story
Now they said I was greedy
A cheat and a liar
I was to be held in contempt
Have you ever been hated...
No response
And now I'm stuck
Between my ego
And my dime store values
And you know, I'm not angry
I'm not hurt
I'm just waking up
I'm finally awake
You see....
No response
The problem, as I see it
Is not so much the world
As it is me
(The wind listened
While it began to rain)
It's me and my anachronisms
I'm outdated and useless
At least that's how I think
I romanticized and intellectualized
You don't blame me too
Do you...
No response
I, I just wanted you to know
Before I said good-bye
The rain intensified
As I picked up the gun
I looked again at the chair
Pulled back the trigger
And sat down...