I thought I should call
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I shouldn't call
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I was neurotic
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I should grow up
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I could be happy
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I should stay away
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought she doesn't care
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought maybe she does
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I could guess
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I knew
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I had a future
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought it was all hopeless
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I should give up
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought of suicide
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought of being better
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I could go on
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I shouldn't call
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I should call
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I loved her
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought she deserves better
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I should die
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought I should live
Then I thought Fuck it
I thought to go on
Then I thought Fuck it
Fuck it all
Fuck
It
All
But mostly
I fucked myself